I was lying in bed, on my back, listening to a cd, and holding the lyrics that came with the cd above me, reading it as i listened to the words.
and i wept, and the tears flowed down the side of my face, and dripped off my ears, and onto my pillow.
Oh, for a heart that does not ache
For a backbone that won't break
For some steady feet or sturdy ground
A road that isn't gonna let me turn around and run
For a thousand tongues to sing
To wear wisdom like Solomon's robe
For the patience and perspective of a man like Job
Just to soar on wings of eagles
For no other reason than the bird's eye view
For a flight or two
And the list gets longer
Who I wish I was, and was no longer
I never could be good enough
To measure up
But You want to take me as I come
You're the only one that can
Take me as I am
Oh, to feel hope in hopeless times
Never mind the silver lining 'cause the clouds are fine
To breathe prayers that move the heavens
Or save hundreds from the flames
To know my place, to know my name
But the gap grows wider
Between who I am and all I aspire to be
At the end of myself, at the end of the day
I can find little else but the courage to say I need You
That's all... I need You
Written by Nichole Nordeman and Mark Hammond
Copyright 2002 Ariose Music / Mark Hammond Music / ASCAP /
Admin. by EMI Christian Music Publishing
and also
It's a fear that keeps me wide awake
In the middle of the night
When the expectations are too grerat
And the bar gets raised too high
So I do the best with what I've got
And hope that no one knows
That I strain to see how high I can
Try to stand on these toes
Until I'm measured, but You know better
So, thank you, Jesus
Even when You see us just as we are
Fragile and frail and so far
From who we want to be
So, thank You, Jesus
Even when the pieces are broken and small
Dreams shattered and scattered like the wind
Thank You, even then
So I put aside the masquerade
And admit that I am not okay
Which may not be the thing to say
But I'm not ashamed to need You more each day
We raise the standard, and try to reach You
But we'll never make it, and we don't need to...
Written by Nichole Nordeman
Copyright 2002 Ariose Music /ASCAP / Admin. by EMI Christian
Music Publishing
Amongst many others. But I've had enough typing for now.
