oops i left my real name there. oh well. now perhaps people can link all my seditious posts to me and have me arrested under the ISA or something. =).
it's impossible to find silence nowadays. unless you have those white-noise-headphone things that blank out all sound. but its kinda hard to wear those all the time. hard to relate to people then.
there was like only one person in the office today (besides me, that is) for some time. and still there was noise. he was listening to music on the comp. similarly next door... only one person, with a radio on. it seems to me that people can't stand the sound of silence. and that's just sad.
our heads are continually bombarded by streams of sensations... is it any wonder that we have trouble being quiet before the Lord? some days it seems that in the rare periods of silence, my brain generates its own "noise", so much so that i can't focus on anything.
i lose my train of thought so much more easily, nowadays. attempting 'A' level math... i'll be chugging along, working things out systematically, when suddenly my brain decides to stop of its own accord.... i'll be thinking the same mathematical phrase over and over and over again... and after about ten seconds i'll forget what i was thinking about. 100% packet loss. sigh.... this is what being out of school for two years has resulted in.
i visited a secondary school today. part of work, setting up an army exhibition thingummy, Nan Hua Secondary. went with this lady Captain, spent over an hour in her vehicle with her during the travelling to and fro. and apparently i'm an adult now, 'cos we talked about bank loans and bringing up children and the difficulty of affording life in Singapore and changing values of the generations. was rather relaxing actually, notwithstanding the weighty conversation topics.
there is a difference between doing what is right, and doing the right thing. that was phrased terribly, but i don't know how else to put it. but there is no point in following rules legalistically - "everything is permissible, but not everything is good". that's actually quoted directly from the Bible, which probably would surprise many people. but our faith is not about following a bunch of laws laid down back in the days of Moses, but rather, about loving people, and doing things that edify them, and show them who God is.
it's so difficult to remember this, and apply it.
not giving up.
