i made this observation a week ago at a meeting.
"It's always the people who are the most ON FIRE that end up getting BURNT OUT."
and i received the groans that were due me. i, on the other hand, was trying hard to suppress hysterical laughter. sigh... but making lame jokes makes me happier for awhile.
as my cousin put it at dinner on the eve of CNY, "Lame jokes run in our family, except that they're lame, so they can't run." lalalalala.
i had a remarkably deep conversation with my cousin's fiance about ministry matters, even though it's only the second time i've ever met him. he's been working hard with church youth, and we talked about our frustrations and our hopes. it was refreshing to talk with someone who's gone through the same problems, and is further along the path that i'm walking on. i spoke to him again today at lunch, and his passion for the kingdom was clear to see. and next to him i was reminded of the many things i have yet to become. sin confounds me. fear dominates me. i grimace more than i smile nowadays.
i am tired, and have been unable to find rest. i've been sleeping day and night, yet i can hardly bring myself to do anything that resembles work. i have dropped many responsibilities, but there are still many on my plate. i eagerly anticipate the day when i will finally be free of them all.
one of the modules i am taking this semester is ES2007S, Professional Communication. Amongst other things, it is also teaching about emotional intelligence, defined as the identification and understanding of one's emotions, and the control and utilisation of said emotions in aid of one's goals. i don't think i will do very well here...
