nine days since i last said something here. this is the exact reason i refused to start blogging earlier... i have such little perseverance. rarely stick to anything for any large period of time.
and yet its so important to write things down... writing things down gives more perspective somehow... forces you to think through the happenings and events that pile up in life like some major multiple-vehicle highway smashup... so important to preserve some of these strange, fleeting thoughts that help tease out the intricate weaving that makes up myself... who am i? to quote (roughly) from Sun Tzu:
Know thine enemy,
know thyself.
A thousand battles,
a thousand victories.
That's how i think it goes anyway. Know thy enemy, know thyself... both equally important in finding victory.
*this muse is interrupted for some breaking news! i heard a crow in the kitchen, and instead of strolling over to chase it out with my sheer bulk (compared to the crow, of course), i sprinted into the kitchen yelling incomprehensibly at it. and as it flew off, i laughed at the sheer absurdity of it all. quite fun actually!=)*
i browse some of the blogs of acquaintances i know, and these lyrics came to mind:
Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seemed to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide
The last two lines are beyond my ken. someone explain them to me, if you will. But the meaning of the first two seem plain enough to me. Some people are so content to live life for all the activities and happenings around them... they never seem to stop and ponder the meaning and the wonder of it all... why do we live? people such as i, who agonise over philosophical things, things that seem of little consequence to this world that cares about material things... yet...
like Sun Tzu says, know thyself. ever since young, i've always tried to analyze myself and my motivations, driven by the love of God, to make sure that nothing i did was for my own glory. i have had sufficient trouble with arrogance in the past, and even now. looking up a bible verse just a little while earlier, i came across a mindmap i made when i was in... sec3? pondering why people raised their hands in worship, and whether i could or should do the same. and i figured it out, but i realise that i have forgotten, since i never wrote it down. must go find out again. i guess this is where the blog comes in.
i had more to write, but i'm tired. been a crazy week. i haven't even touched on the title of this post yet.... perhaps later.
